thelilvamp'
femme
Standing 5'2"
Taurus baby.
love shopping ♥ love eating ♥ love
dieting ♥ love slim-fit ♥ love gfs ♥ love bitching ♥
love being naughty ♥ love hotstuffs ♥
love ma baby ♥ ♥ ♥
11.07 | 12.07 | 01.08 | 02.08 |
03.08 | 04.08 | 05.08 | 06.08 | 07.08 | 08.08 |
Wednesday, November 28, 2007 12:47 PM
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My lovely daphy is back in Sg hahaha. shall mit her nxt week. she heard so many things frm me the moment she call me wahhaa. As usual la rite? hehe.
Bs tml. nid to wake up early tml =/
but nvm cus it oso means knock off early~ yeah!
Bs tml. nid to wake up early tml =/
but nvm cus it oso means knock off early~ yeah!
Tuesday, November 27, 2007 3:55 PM
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that connection wasnt meant to happen.
i tink it's time to cut the bait. I tink i should start anew.
i wasted so much strength,again.
im sorry, faye =/
im sucha failure. it always happens on me. i dont like walking back the same direction in life. i dont like looking back and regret things. im always moving forward and trying to have a more stable life as in emotionally. it's either 'ALL or NTH'. This is faye. all i want is just stabilty. i dont like shaky life. i dont want to be worried abt this and that. i dont want to think too much. i dont want to regret. i dont want love&hate at the same time. i dont want to feel tired. i dont want to stay up late in the night thinking of rubbish. i dont want to miss anyone who left my life. i dont want to do stupid things. i dont want to anyhow vent my anger. i dont want to remember. i dont want things which are not meant to be to happen. i dont want to lie down and feel sth coming out of the corner of my eye. i dont want ppl to ask me abt my personal stuff unless im willing to say. now i rlly dont feel like opening up myself to anyone anymore. i feel that im slowly changing, changing into somebody v strange. Im used to shaky feelings, im used to having no answer, im used to feeling okay at work but evrything changed otw home til i fall aslp. im used to ppl seeing me as who dey want me to be but not who im. i dono exactly what i want now. i dono how to make myself feel better. i dono who to run to. i dono what will happen nxt. i dono where im suppose to be. aimlessly searching inside me. i just hope all my tears can come out once and fer all
;(
i tink it's time to cut the bait. I tink i should start anew.
i wasted so much strength,again.
im sorry, faye =/
im sucha failure. it always happens on me. i dont like walking back the same direction in life. i dont like looking back and regret things. im always moving forward and trying to have a more stable life as in emotionally. it's either 'ALL or NTH'. This is faye. all i want is just stabilty. i dont like shaky life. i dont want to be worried abt this and that. i dont want to think too much. i dont want to regret. i dont want love&hate at the same time. i dont want to feel tired. i dont want to stay up late in the night thinking of rubbish. i dont want to miss anyone who left my life. i dont want to do stupid things. i dont want to anyhow vent my anger. i dont want to remember. i dont want things which are not meant to be to happen. i dont want to lie down and feel sth coming out of the corner of my eye. i dont want ppl to ask me abt my personal stuff unless im willing to say. now i rlly dont feel like opening up myself to anyone anymore. i feel that im slowly changing, changing into somebody v strange. Im used to shaky feelings, im used to having no answer, im used to feeling okay at work but evrything changed otw home til i fall aslp. im used to ppl seeing me as who dey want me to be but not who im. i dono exactly what i want now. i dono how to make myself feel better. i dono who to run to. i dono what will happen nxt. i dono where im suppose to be. aimlessly searching inside me. i just hope all my tears can come out once and fer all
;(
Friday, November 23, 2007 1:18 PM
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feeling very tired these days due to insufficient slp. even now my eyes are alr half closed and fer goodness sake it's not even 10. now my life is surrounding by work work and work. i noticed i seldom make plans wit ppl anymore. i just want to reach home asap and lie on my bed. it's just work and myself.
evrytime i feel it, i swear i acted like a complete bitch
and evrytime i hate d feeling, i make a big fuss.
and i definately noe why.
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evrytime i feel it, i swear i acted like a complete bitch
and evrytime i hate d feeling, i make a big fuss.
and i definately noe why.
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Thursday, November 22, 2007 5:09 PM
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i miss playing ard.
Alone in the shop today and my meals today are so pathetic -___-
Burger's breakfast burger fer late breakfast, currypuff fer late lunch, ljs's salad&chickenpie fer dinner =/ i must rlly thk suman so muchhhhhhhhh okay. if she dint came in to the shop i might have to survive on that tiny chicken pie cus i dont wana pull down the two heavy shuttle just to go down to buy food and oso customers are forever coming at wrong time. zzz wth. And i rlly feel like showing some of them my middle finger. Just like that _l_
Tml's at bussorah early in the morning. Nv been dere b4 gotta find the place myself tml hopefully i dont lost my way lol. I hate ulcer to the core and i OWN a bigggggg one now ;( i guess i wont b able to talk much tml. I feel like slping so much but my hp is still charging. 7.45 is a v idiotic time to wake up,prepare and all =/ soooooooo tired today. im like a zombie now though i slpt fer almost the whole journey otw home. gooooooddddnite.
and
i rlly dont like slping in bus. alone.
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Tuesday, November 20, 2007 4:58 AM
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WAHAHA aft hesitating fer so freaking long. i've finally decided teehee. im gona go all the way anyways try new things while young. i believe even if giving my looks a slight change wont do any harm. i've set my mind on sth so unbelievable fer myself actually. gona try it asap. my time is so packed now =/ work! urgh damnit! nvm. well, perhaps within this and nxt week? i rlly cant wait. Im gona turn myself into what i've been waiting fer hiaks.
Today off. gona go on a mini shopping spree and oso to trim my bushy eyebrow. weeeeeeets! but how sad! aft putting aside my daily expenses and skincare products im only left wit so lil cash ;( i tink i can forget abt saving up this mth hahs! wait fer my nxt payday ba. wth. ytd i suddenly hav a crazy thought. i actually have the urge to cut my hair short. hahahaha. crazy ehk? first time sia. but still i cant bring myself to do that unless my face will nv grow fatter. hahahaha. i guess today hy and i will mit up late again. well. what can i say? we're always late ;p
throw the unhappy happenings away.
cus i noe the days will get better
Saturday, November 17, 2007 4:37 PM
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actually i tot today was quite a peaceful day fer me
work and play.
until i just received a pone call...
i couldnt even hav the time to react.
my heart is aching so badly now ;'(
he did stupid things and now? wahlau.
i rlly hope things will not turn out so bad but.. =/
*sigh* Love u la idiot.
miss you so.
;'(
work and play.
until i just received a pone call...
i couldnt even hav the time to react.
my heart is aching so badly now ;'(
he did stupid things and now? wahlau.
i rlly hope things will not turn out so bad but.. =/
*sigh* Love u la idiot.
miss you so.
;'(
Friday, November 16, 2007 3:02 PM
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fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck.
even if i get sick. even if i drive myself crazy. even if this tired me out. even if i noe it might be only fer the time being. i noe this is nuts but im gona rely on it. until tat day its stable
_l_
even if i get sick. even if i drive myself crazy. even if this tired me out. even if i noe it might be only fer the time being. i noe this is nuts but im gona rely on it. until tat day its stable
_l_
Wednesday, November 14, 2007 7:15 PM
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working at 10.30AM tml and im still awake zzzzz =.= my eyes are so tired but i cant fall aslp. feeling very hungry now. i think i got a blackhole in my stomach, i dont seems to feel full recently and i sense sth v wrong wit my body. i sometimes feel like vomitting,having blackouts at sucha weight now?!?!!! and oso at times i feel a funny feeling on my chest. i rlly dono why im feeling this way =/
Tuesday, November 13, 2007 3:19 PM
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please don't say you wanna give up.
♥
Monday, November 12, 2007 8:33 AM
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i wana be tann
but i wana be fair too =/
im still hesitating~~
either getting very tann
or be very fair.
i dont like those in between color
yucks!
but i wana be fair too =/
im still hesitating~~
either getting very tann
or be very fair.
i dont like those in between color
yucks!
Sunday, November 11, 2007 3:57 PM
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On the pone wit daphy and i think im feeling better alr.
I feel like changing environment sia but im sometimes enjoying =/
I feel like changing environment sia but im sometimes enjoying =/
Saturday, November 10, 2007 3:56 PM
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i couldnt stand having a lousy mood anymore. ran to the washrm countless times during work, i tried making myself vomit. how crazy i've bcome. i hated vomitting most and i did tt. but still nth came out and i got freaking angry wit myself.
it'll nv be too late.
my strength to contiune comes frm you.
traeh ym ot esolc oot eru
it'll nv be too late.
my strength to contiune comes frm you.
traeh ym ot esolc oot eru
Friday, November 09, 2007 8:40 PM
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I can feel it evry now and den
;(
;(
3:15 PM
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if any of my gfs want to share wit me ur problems, now is not the time alright? sry.
i cant even settle my own problem now. i dont wish to have any extra thing fer me to think abt. all i want to do now is switch off both my brain and pone until my problems are all gone. im rlly rlly v tired. i rlly feel like bursting into tears so much but i see no point. thk god im working now, kip me busy as busy as possible. dont let me have d time to stop and think. switch me off fer the moment. disconnect wit the outside world, can i?
somehow,
something just overwhelm me , override logic
and all my other sense of clarity.
i cant even settle my own problem now. i dont wish to have any extra thing fer me to think abt. all i want to do now is switch off both my brain and pone until my problems are all gone. im rlly rlly v tired. i rlly feel like bursting into tears so much but i see no point. thk god im working now, kip me busy as busy as possible. dont let me have d time to stop and think. switch me off fer the moment. disconnect wit the outside world, can i?
somehow,
something just overwhelm me , override logic
and all my other sense of clarity.
Wednesday, November 07, 2007 4:41 PM
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mini shopping spree today ;)
i got two dress and three tops, no bottoms at all.
dint get my sling bag just now cus out of stock =/
nvm but i reserved one alr should b here by weekends hah!
more shopping aft i get my pay teehee!
I cant wait to get those stuff :D
i got two dress and three tops, no bottoms at all.
dint get my sling bag just now cus out of stock =/
nvm but i reserved one alr should b here by weekends hah!
more shopping aft i get my pay teehee!
I cant wait to get those stuff :D
- stock up my makeups
- bottoms
- stock up sth ( just in case when i see some no. i'll feel like dying haha)
- flats~~~~
Tuesday, November 06, 2007 5:02 PM
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im stucked here again.
evryday is surrounded by work and what more some customers are rlly kuku =.=" i rlly cant stand some BOYS thinking that they're the centre of attention and expecting ppl to talk to dem nicely when they're childishly playing by scolding other ppl on the pone. wth okay. fuck dem. they're nth to me and pls no guys evr scolded me lidat alrite. who do they think they are. pls la. use ur fucking brain and think. ohya i forgotten u ppl only have tiny brains and can only think of gerls. despo shit. that grp of guys. eh nono i mean BOYS. they haven grow up i guess. u all are actually nth to us gerls alrite. sry to say but pls look into mirror. obviously there're so many guys better den u all. you all sucks to the core. no respect fer ppl at all _l_ FUCK OFFFFFFFFFFFF!
im finally off tml. mini shopping spree tml~~ :D
Monday, November 05, 2007 4:23 PM
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What can i see now.
Sunday, November 04, 2007 3:13 PM
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I regret saying out okay.
what if things just disappear again? =/
not rushing,not putting pressure
u just noe what i want
what if things just disappear again? =/
not rushing,not putting pressure
u just noe what i want
Saturday, November 03, 2007 3:34 PM
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somethings just cant be explain
but i noe u understand.
I can't leave 'em alone
I tried that good boy game
But the dope boy's turning me on
It's just that he know what I want
So bad, I love that, I can't leave 'em alone
I just cant leave him alone
but i noe u understand.
I can't leave 'em alone
I tried that good boy game
But the dope boy's turning me on
It's just that he know what I want
So bad, I love that, I can't leave 'em alone
I just cant leave him alone
Friday, November 02, 2007 10:15 PM
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My guess was right.
And i hope that decision some sort change my life a lil.
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I woke up at 4AM and lie in bed until 6.30AM. working at 2plus ltr and now it's so early so i ate sth ahem ahhaha. noww my eyes are half closed but i cant go bk to slp wth. i renew my shopping list and i cancelled almost half of the list wahaha. save up fer shopping.
i love heels of it's sexyness(pls high heels not those only a 3cm kind)
but flats looks cuter & more comfortable zzzz.
i feel like buying both and i noe hy will be the first one smacking my head. ahhahah!
aft this week gona b fulltime alr, only one day off per week =/
okay, more work more cash $.$
-CURRENT MATERIAL DESIRE -
i think im going bk to slppppppppppp.
And i hope that decision some sort change my life a lil.
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I woke up at 4AM and lie in bed until 6.30AM. working at 2plus ltr and now it's so early so i ate sth ahem ahhaha. noww my eyes are half closed but i cant go bk to slp wth. i renew my shopping list and i cancelled almost half of the list wahaha. save up fer shopping.
i love heels of it's sexyness(pls high heels not those only a 3cm kind)
but flats looks cuter & more comfortable zzzz.
i feel like buying both and i noe hy will be the first one smacking my head. ahhahah!
aft this week gona b fulltime alr, only one day off per week =/
okay, more work more cash $.$
-CURRENT MATERIAL DESIRE -
- Orange-brown sling(forgot the color)
- vintage sling/more bagsssssss :D
- stock up makeups
- greyflats
- darkblue top haha.
i think im going bk to slppppppppppp.
2:18 PM
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Half mth more to payday but im alr kinda broke now =.=" okay nvm shall just tahan awhile more. Until today i finally found a person whom actually gone thru the same thinking and problems as me. Being a taurus gerl, we just nid to be independent and not take ppl's words so seriously. Overview evrything, aft all we're still by ourselves. Shall not contiune thats between us - the two pathetic taurus gerls.
my instinct,
is this gona be right this time?
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my instinct,
is this gona be right this time?
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