ytd morning i tot i was going to die or sth
it happened three times, damn scary i tell u.
but still this wont stop me frm losing weight.

hoho im going to start a new plan
i hope it will work out nicely teehees.

gona go shop fer some stuffs real soon ;)

went to check out the genting thing ytd. evrything is rlly going on haha. yeah we're all looking forward to it. hmm. aft tt d rest went bk, went vivo wit u-noe-who. slack all d way till nite den he sent me bk home. yes, public transport fer him hahs.

supposely im nt going to class today, cus some1's nt going and he managed to sako me to skip oso. but too bad, this morning i tink i should go so i went ahead haha. pathetic only four person in class today. nvm, it's okay. i rlly tink i should slim down abit more. im getting chubbier. i seriously nid to lose weight alr. im such a fatty nw ;(

I kip complaining but i kip eating non-stop.
and what more i missed two mths alr
faster come leeeeeee.
i wana b slimmer cannnn.


[EDITED;10.22pm]

slpt all d way until 8pm. aww tired man. fer right nw i feel extremely bad cus i forgotten to msg junior as today is his last day. aiyeee, damn.

assholeeeeeee. i dont want talk to someone alrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr
screw him

im so sick of my parent's nonsense. i cant possibly deliver what exactly what dey expect. yes im always slacking away outside but why?i just dont wana come home having some very tied down responsiblities!

im a person who definately choose and control who and wher i wana be. i can stay at home on weekends like recently cus im totally worn out. if not fer any purpose or anyone whom i wana hang out wit i rather stay home. but d both of u made me wana stay out all day. hang out till late.If i rlly wana b heartless & give u all prob i could just ignore what u told me and leave xuanxuan starving at home. but too bad, in d end i still made my way home to acc him, cant bring myself to do tt. aft all hes still my bro. we do fight but i still indirectly syg him just tt dey dont see it -.-"i rlly dont like this. stop saying im not helping whn im so trying my best to make things work correctly. dont just kip nagging telling me i create problem, i hav mine too. pls stop d nagging. i rlly dont feel like talking to u alr. damn.

im so slpy nw but still stuck in msn haha
hmm. i feel like doing some shopping.

i've been whining fer dono hw long alr. im feeling so bad today. evrythings turning so weird and wrong. but luckily dere's one guy who shocked me can ahhaha. not s la. hw things nw are so freaky.


like travelling frm past to now ah all of dem hah.

I finally pluck up my courage and weigh myself just now
okay 43 not so bad. I tot i would be over 45kg or heavier
but still i nid to lose some extra fats.
i noe weight doesnt rlly matter it's d looks
but i just like the 'alil-fragile' kind of look hah dono y.
not too skinny of cus.

no more time to lose. march is coming to d end.
i want evry single thing to be done not just in d middle of it u see..
I rlly nid to look my best. im putting in so much effort in myself nw due to many reasons.
& it feels great to look fabulous too. hurhur lovessssssssss!

woohoo~ sch tml. happy can hees.

TELL YOU WHATTTTTT.
im msn-ing wit my first ever crush in deyi.
wahahaha guess who guess who.
make me recall so many funny things

[EDITED@10.30PM]
teehee! got the job ;)
tml gotta find pants and flats.

i wana call u right now but i noe i cant reach.
i wana hear u at d other end of d pone telling me to work properly,
telling me to behave & b a gd gerl. baby~

Im freaking upset now. I seriously tink tt i gained alot of weight & grew so much fatter. I see cellulite evrywher. I feel the fats evry now and den. I dont like fats can. nid to tone up tone up tone up tone up. but how how how how howwww. I dont wana be back to square one. cjx rlly dont look gd wit fats. gotta be slim u see =/ i want to lose 5kg!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

how how how how how. i gona try evry single method.
i hope this body will stay strong olrites.
MAKE ME WHO I WANA BE CAN. fucker

dont u tink this pic look abit like those always taken in zoo. hahaha! pic wit d animal && whos d animal? very obvious is my very hot bro tsktsk. he like ppl saying that olriteees -.-"

and pls pardon remi's face(d one bhind) hahahaha.
these two boys are d joker of d class n my big bros follow by lesha Miss super-nice. if dey're nt in class i tell u..im sure i'll b lz to go sch. love dem can. must make our holiday happen sia. so looking forward. as in fer sch life, this is what i want. not those boring days in deyi. now is d schdays i enjoy and love most. hees ;)

i wana smell my babyboy so muchhhhhhhhh.

Im seriously hating flu olriteee -.-" zzzz.

met eunice fer lunch at cathy den home swit home.
My book is not wit me again. Yes it's wit him as usual.
but pls bear in mind im not making use/taking advantage of him.

hees! i bought my billabong cap and it's like finally. im loving it so much! i wana be a handsome lady, i just love to be a lil man at times hah. only bought 2tops&sandals. v dissappointing. i couldnt find any clothes i like recently. im not satisfied yet. im planning some stuff alr. i hope things can go accordingly so tt i finally can make it happen to myself. it's fer me. gotta work harder cus it's worth. & i feel like doing sth to my hair/fringe.


hmmm private life. definately something going on, complicated. shall wait and see. seriously i cant be bothered how some ppl look & tink of me. dey're not me so dey dont & wont evr understand this. dey nv been thru all this hardships. v lil ppl can endure so much and so long. i guess only daphy understand this time round cus shes d only one whom i told her evrything in details as in my feelings & all. She wont tink bad abt me cus she wants me to be right. and whatmore it's not as if im letting guys do whatevr dey want. it's me choosing whos gona be right here wit me evry now and den. i dono how im being judge by some ppl but i still tink as long as im comfortable and happy, it's right.

Some ppl just gotta grow up, in this world theres so many things u nid others help. Other den just help sometimes attractions & chemistry is sth we cant hide & stop. Different ppl have different thinking and beliefs. If you tink ure so precious, pls wrap head to toe wit black clothings. u may tink im nonsense but i tink ure more nonsense. sometimes u cant b always beating ard the bush, u gotta go straight to d point. Plssss. it's 2008 now. You just gotta figure out whats best fer u. Different ppl just get to d destination by a different route. If anyone dont agree wit my words just dig it out frm ur brain. i dont care.

im like craving fer cold drinks evry now&den
but im having running nose since ytd,i suppose.
shit tt flu. irritating can. make my eyes so damn small, so uglyyyy.

i think im fat now la olrites. i nid my face to bcome slimmer, arms bcome smaller, skin bcome darker. how can all this happen b4 april man. so hard. but im gona make it work.

somemore i tink im rlly sick this time. i feel so dizzy zzzzz -.-"
& i notice this boy rlly hav sweet tooth
i seldom see a boy kip wanting to eat icecream hah

chenmeihao. i just love disturbing her.
anw if anyone wana see how human fly?
show her cockroaches hah.

&& i feel like going tanning right nowwwwww >.<
& i wan knock her head cus i guess she forgotten to call me.



sweetie of mine;my bitching partner
long time since we last mit up and shes missing me like crazy even mrs singh told me tt(bump into her in orchard d other day). serious this time. i'll mit u up this coming week. no more dragging. gotta take lots of pics olrite my darling. u better tell me when ure free. i'll save that one full day fer u. ur shawty always. love u!


caught in the rain four days in a row and im finally down wit flu.
damnit.

i got a funny feeling.
damn u

baby's mum called but i dint manage to ans due to batt low& i switch off d pone. tsktsk tml must call bk to find out she wana tell. On d pone wit daphy now & i tink i totally drained out all my energy today. so tired can. im gona slp alr. gdnite my babyboy. ilu~

kip holding on.
i love my stupid boy.

I've overeat today & i can totally feel my fats all over. I dont feel depressed this time round but i find it funny. dono why. weekends rlly can kill especially when i dont feel like stepping out of d hse. i'll most probably stay home and bury myself wit food and my own fats. luckily deres only two days of rest in a week. I tink it's time i should make myself freaking bz & worn out by getting a 5/6 days a week job. Bt i just dont seems to find those situable fer my timing tsktsk =/

I nid to kip myself occupied instead of rotting and slacking evryday. i find it more tiring tt way. hmm, tml gotta get some things done. nida "cast" some magical spell ahah. booo! i nid to do my hp too. im gona be damn broke aft tt. all add up to a bomb can. $$ kip spending but no income come in -.-" zzzzzzz.


something so amazing happened last night.

this have totally no link to d above fyi.
i dint listen to tarots cus i dont tink such things will evr happen. Somethings turn out abit unexpected. i was told not to ____ fer anything as whatevr it is it'll mostly ____ ____.

mwahhh! xD i love my babyboy hees!
happy cannnn. i've got two two two two TWO letters frm him. i dono how to describe my feelings now, but now i can confirm all these while my love and tears is all worth it. thk god he appreciate it. rlly glad that he have the heart to turn into a better man. i hope this time is his first and his last. never go into that idiotic place anymore. gona write to him ltr on. hees! he wants my IC no. so he can request fer my visit. loves! he said hes missing me so much and he rmbs our songs xD i totally dono what to say. i just feel like kissing him heh. i miss you like so much can dear. pls stay strong fer me ok syg. i wish to be by ur side now. love you!


and i noticed sth, his handwriting!
totally no comments HAHAHA!





okay. some random stuffs.
These few days so tired can. Hang out wit d 3 boys aft sch and dey're like giving me jaw-
cramps hahaha. canot tahan dem. i tink of their laughter i feel like laughing alr. wahahah! and im so tired of walking at orchard. went there fer two days already. SG is like so freaking small tsktsk 'haha' is still not hereeeeeeee. i've missed it fer two mths alr cann. u better kill me.
Im getting rounder! i dont wana see baby elephant in d mirror >.<

awwwww~ im falling in love wit this beautiful city
located in spain; Barcelona!

the 'feel' is totally dere.
a complete wonderland to me.

bring me there. will you?

Went to NATAS fair this morning with d BMC peeps. And we planned to go on holiday to some island together hahaha. no joke. we rlly mean it but not so soon uh. btw i've eaten so much this few days. Two biggggg packet of biscuit in two days wth >.< im going to grow so FATTTT. yea aft that acc anwari since remi is miting a gerl at cityhall. so we all lepak at marina since it's still early. whatevr it is, this two guys i rlly dono what to say. so freaking funny and their laughter is sooooo contagous -.- they laugh i laugh. it's like impossible to be angry wit dem though dey love disturbing ppl. but overall they're stil gentleman enough wit my stuffs hurhur.


it's weekend again. so damn fast can. && one stupid terrorist made all guys in NS on standby pathetic can. tsktsk~ i rlly feel like visiting some seaside resort or sth.



two months is so near yet so far.