I got the job. Left wit Taka to approve thats all ^.^
Assignments are driving me alil nuts cus i dont have my microsoft word and all. I dono how am i going to save it. Im still trying to think of a good way. Tsktsk our world is so wide wit so many freaking countries which we dont evn noe. Big and small cities. Im going to like see alot of stars very soon. hmmm, thk god we started alr or else uh. i think we rlly canot make it to finish one though i dont even noe if we could finish. but i noe we must. tourism~~~~

and i realised im getting more chubby as in my faceeeeeeeeee which is a very bad news.

10 more weeks my idiotboy.
i rlly cant wait to see you, i cant wait to share evrything wit you.
it's like the worst&darkest part of ur life,but pls endure.

I dont know how and why but i just wana stay wit you.
words are never enough to describe this feeling
& nobody can evr feel d telepathy, just two of us.
i cant leave this love and i gotta say,
ure my sweetest drug.

I came home straight aft sch. i totally have no mood today. it's just a bad day alright. im so tired last nite that i can actually fall aslp while reading a book and i woke up only this mornng -.-" frm my outfit to feelings, evrything is so wrong today. i cant deny lil jokes makes me laugh during lesson but still i feel so unhappy. i carried four v thick books all the way back home and i totally dont feel like moving my right arm now. So pissed since morning and sth added on and now, mum is nagging evr since i stepped into the hse. gimme some peace alrights.

im feeling so shitty now can can can can can. i feel like a monster now, i feel so ugly, i feel tt im d lousiest now. where did all my confidence go man. i rlly rlly feel so ugly right now.


other den that,
i cant feel what i wana feel and who i wana see,
i dont like this feeling at all >.<


it's not jealousy
but it rlly spoilt my mood.
damn. screw u _l_

I stayed home this weekend, i dint go anywher. im slping all d way at home. haha yeah v lz indeed. teehee. Though sometimes dad rlly pissed us off. but he always indirectly dote us :D Like just now, im so lz to even leave my butt off d sofa so i called him to help me collect my jeans at amk since alteration is ready but he said hes not near amk so ask me collect myself >.< how sad. but end up he came bk wit my pants hehs! but stil like d previous time when he surprised my wit d hp i always wanted, he dint give it to me. he put it on whatevr furniture bhind d wall to let me "accidentally" find out HAHAHA.

Though sometimes unhappy things/quarrels happen in d family, but still i love my family. Im glad to have a mum who i can share,whine,complain or even gossip to her abt almost evrything. she always try to do/get whatevr i want though i noe sometimes it's hard fer her and i felt so gulity she gave it to me, a dad who dote on me since young, you noe ppl always says father dote on her daughter and the youngest most but fortunately im d only daughter and my bro is d youngest ahhaha. i must say he rlly dote on us, extra protective too -.-" my bro who is irritating at times, hes cuteeeeee can wahaha. we joke, critisize ppl, play, get crazy, talk cock,disturb each other & all. i super love to disturb him cannnnnn hahs! i love it when he got so shy whenevr i says he got lotsssss of gfs. I might not b so very rich, i might not hav alot of things ppl hav but im happy to have my family wit me. this is alr what alot of ppl dont hav <3



School tml. miting up d peeps fer breakfast first.
hoho. byeee!~

writing letter disappeared frm my head, i somehow feel like letting go too,
i compare others wit u, i almost throw evrything away whenevr i rmb how u mia last time, i want stability not just ur words. whatmore now, i cant see u nor hear ur voice. ure way too far away frm me. it's like communication breakdown. sorry dearest, i started to doubt my love fer you.




i always tot 5mths wont b that hard.
until now, den i realised.
Standing alone on that shaky ground isnt so easy.

Guess whos on d other end of d line?
Hakim! O.o im actually kinda shocked few days ago la.
hes forevr d same. hahaha PSP PSP PSP!~~
Im feeling hungry & i feel a lil gastric >.<

All i wana say is that i rlly prefer d current course im taking den in sec5. Im v gladed i chose this way instead. luckily i quitted deyi. This is what i rlly want. Going to sch w/o dragging my feets evryday. Enjoy class instead of wanting to slp evry lesson. Or mayb part of it is bcus i dont like the ppl in dyss. Learnt alot of stuffs regarding d course and in life haha. but what i noe is that i gona fight fer what i want. & so sorry i turned alil moreee bitchy in some ways. but aft all my purpose is to get what i want. yeah dere's no limit babey *winks

four things driving me crazy right now -.-"

1. my new hp which i still dono well.
2. the installing of the samsung disc.
3. no matter how much i delete programs in pc, d space seems forevr not enough zzzz
4. i cant find d document folder in my pc to save dad's IC.

damn damn damn damn damnnnnnnnnn _l_
grjasdiogt ero;hgtufowerjttgfoewjgto erw4;qugth3t gkatg;awer
>.<

"EYE CONTACTS"


DELETED my previous post. you noe....just in case. cus got link one ah i realised ahha yeah. lunched at pizzahut wit those funny peeps in class. all exchanged email&no. but i pass ard my paper wit all their emails & no. fer dem to copy & i dint get it bk >.< blur ar me. & i dono whos d paper wit now. tsktsk nvm tml still seeing dem again anyway.

urgh i rlly cant stand my eyelashes alr. i dont care la im going to perm it ltr. im broke but still this kind of money i insist on spending hahaha. i rlly cant stand naughty-cum-hot guys. my eyes will eventually got stuck on dem. damnnnnnnn.






eyes are always the windows of our soul.
it shows a person's attitude in speaking to this particular person
you can usually tell if his concentrating on you alone.
it's kind of funny. i dare not look into his fer too long.
i just dont know why.

Manage to ask dad to sponser me to change my hp :D Happy can. dont nid to spend so much of my own money alr. im wondering if i should change to that pone. hahaha im definately gona get a slim pone as usual la. but color wise. hrmm. mayb hav a change uh. && my room color, im soooooo sick of yellow alr. i want it in purple this time round. hav to choose the color first den inform dad hehs.So many changes i want to make to my room. shall visit Ikea to get some stuff, hopefully i have enough cash tsktsk.

all along since last yr i wanted a kitten. i guess evrybody knew it but until now den family took it seriously cus i nearly wanted to adopt one. BUT nobody agrees to it. i told dem i want it so badly and i could tc of it myself. the only thing dey tell me is the story abt my hamsters HAHAHA i rmb la alrights wahaha. mum said we dont nid one at home, && if i rlly want to see a kitten evryday. look into the mirror >.<

i look like cat meh -.-"

<3